Day 18 - Plans/Dreams/Goals
BLEH. I'm 38 years old (in April) and I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up. Short term goals work best for me because I feel like they're the easiest to accomplish, and I am SUCH an underachiever.
Like this blog. I started it, but what the fuck am I even doing here? So far, I'm just doing a writing challenge that's all about me and this blog. I have an idea of the kinds of things I'd like to share, which I've mentioned a couple of times, but do I have anything actually planned?
No. Not really.
I mean, yes, I did, but now I'm not sure if I want to do it here, or start an author blog/portfolio and do it there. GAH! I need to make some decisions.
I have plans for the house, though!
Literally the entire house is this café au lait color that I loved way back in the day, but now I find it sort of boring. I guess it would work with my boho dreams, but I don't want the whole house the same color. It's...drab.
SO! In the Spring, when we can have the windows open, we're going to paint the upstairs hallway and the stairwell some sort of creamy off white. We haven't picked the exact shade, yet. And we're going to paint our bedroom gray to match the bathroom, because it'll go better than the brown with the gorgeous purple curtains I made Big buy...that have been hanging since we bought them despite the fact that they don't go with anything in that room.
Those are the only specific plans. The office needs to be painted, but we haven't decided what color. We want something bright, maybe a blue. We're considering buying a couple of Rick and Morty tapestries that I'll cut in half and make into curtains for that room. And then we're each going to decorate our spaces as we see fit. Which means mine will be crazy with lots of abstract art and this cat tapestry I really want to hang on the back of my desk (which faces the door), and Big's will probably never get decorated because that's just who Big is.
We're also hoping to buy a freezer to keep in the basement for meat overflow and maybe frozen veggies from our garden.
I also have some plans for the yard!
We're going to put in a giant vegetable garden in the back of the yard, and put a fence around it. We're hoping to put in enough tomatoes for canning, and beans and such for freezing.
And I'm putting a sunflower patch on the side of the driveway away from the house. I'm insanely excited about that. I've always wanted a sunflower patch.
We may have to figure out what we're going to replace our rhododendrons with. They're not really good in subzero temperatures, so I think this winter may have killed them. I mean, the windchill was in the negative 20s for a week. It's sad, but if they do die, I'm thinking of moving the hydrangeas to where they are because right now, the hydrangeas get full sun, so they're kind of stunted, and I want big, beautiful hydrangea bushes like my grandma had. Then I just need to figure out what does well in full sun. Maybe some hibiscus and roses. I've always wanted a rose bush.
I'm hoping to put in some bucket herb gardens so I can bring them in in winter. I hope to put in a catnip bush somewhere. And then, at some point, I'm going to start buying and making fairy garden structures. Cliché, maybe, but I don't care.
We're hoping to paint the deck this summer to protect it and so that we can walk on it barefoot because I hate wearing shoes outside in summer. Of course, there's always dead animals and animal poop in our yard, so I should probably get over that at some point. Or get used to stepping in gross stuff, I guess.
My dreams...I'm finding they're like that Garth Brooks song The River. Right now, the river's ebbing. I have things I want but they're so far off in the future that if I'm not careful, I'll convince myself they're unattainable. Like owning a homestead or a farm, or being able to support us with my art.
My art...the list grows longer by the day. There's writing, of course. I think I've got a pretty good handle on knitting. Now I'm painting.
Okay, I painted a background. But I fully intend to finish it, and I've already started pricing out better supplies because holy fuck that was fun! Frustrating as hell because the paints are really low quality, and the paperboard curls as the paint starts to dry, and no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't get the colors the woman was making in the tutorial.
This tutorial. The woman's name is Jane, and I love her painting videos. Dude, I think I've found a new way to cure my panic attacks. Her painting tutorials are so serene, and soothing, and I will probably, at some point, try to recreate every single one of them, because they're really amazing.
ANYway, I think that with practice, I'll get better, so that's a dream. To get better at painting.
Another dream is to learn to crochet. I don't know why I keep putting it off. I have all the materials I need sitting on/in my desk.
The Goal, right now, is to edit part two of the short story series I'm writing under a different name and have it published by my birthday. I'm pretty sure it's finished besides the editing. Pretty sure. We'll see how that goes.
This series inspired by a writing challenge from Living Off Love and Coffee. Find the full list here.
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