30 Days of Little L - Day 9

Day 9 - Something you're proud of in the last few days

I don't really have a whole lot to say about this, so it's going to be a short post. 

I have been talking about making this blog forever. I had no idea what I was going to call it. All I had was an idea of what I wanted it to include. 

But I also have trouble being open. 

On the other blog, I'd been writing more personal stuff, and immediately after posting it, I'd go into a panic about what people would think, or how they'd judge me. I'd leave it up because a) I needed to have it out there, and b) once it's on the internet, it's on the internet. There's no retracting it. But I never really felt like it belonged there, so I'd hold back. I mean, I'd say, "I'm not okay," but I'd never really go so far as to say, "I'm having suicidal thoughts again." 

That's not helping anyone. Least of all me. 

So I finally got my ass in gear, picked a name, and got this thing up and running. And now I'm making a pledge to be as open as humanly possible about my life, and my thoughts and feelings, and my mental health going forward. There are chapters in everyone's life that they don't talk about, and for now, on this blog, parts of my past are in those chapters. At least until I can talk about them rationally, and not spiral out of control into depression. But the fact that I'm here, talking about where I am currently as openly as possible, is huge, and I'm really proud of myself for doing it.

This series inspired by a writing challenge from Living Off Love and Coffee. Find the full list here.